Interests:Mountain Dew, and LIFE Expertise:Lounging, Slacking, and Wasting Time. I pretty much like to consider myself a pro time waster. Occupation:Retired Industry:Medical
This is my last post for a very long time. I hope that all of you don't party too hard, get into too much trouble, and don't stay out too late. Have great summers and an even better time wherever you are. I hope that all of you are safe and well and I will expect to see you SOON after I get back. Who knows maybe a party will be in order. Yesssss. For all of you anxious people for photos heres an updated webshots-
and for all of you who want to write to me here's where I will be and when (allow 2-3 weeks for out of country locations). Write if you want to, if not, it's fine.
Hokay so here I am. Tah Dah! As most of you know, my mom has been casted for this year's play of The Wizard of Oz. If you get that, great, if not, don't hurt yourself. Being smart is for a privileged few. Anywhore, I just got back from dad's and now I get to sit around. Fun Fun. And so now here are my thoughts-
I TOO am going away to Africa like emily, except that I'll have it ten times worse because I'll be living out of a tent while she'll be sleeping in a warm bed. Hopefully I don't get AIDS and die, that would blow.
I've been thinking. Been thinking hard, I have before but this s a different kind of thinking. I sat outside last night, where there wasn't anything to distract me. It was quite peaceful. And then all of a sudden Fight Club took on a whole new meaning. In the movie Tyler tells the narrator "It's only after we've lost everything, are we free to do anything.". This trip is going to be awesome. I'm not going to have anything, no phone, hot water, or electricity, and I really think that thats the best part. I'm going to leave everything behind and it's going to give me the best chance to clear my head and refocus on the important things. I'm totally excited! Holla.
It's exteremly hot in my room because my family doesn't believe in air conditioning. I'm sweating.
I miss everyone, I'm thinking the Iron Fist shall be lifted soon. Who knows. Not I.
I hope everyone that is traveling somewhere is safe and having fun. Here's to summer 05.
And a life in Fiji. Too bad that won't happen soon. Think about- Your own island, nakedness all around. Shhhyessss. Bounding through the jungle.....the lush canopy. Thats a sexy word- LUSH.
This past weeks' events have forced me to take a long hard look at my life, my values, and my downfalls. Things have been kind of running straight into a brick wall, and when I say things, I mean most everything. I have had to look really hard at myself. I've realized several things-
I have completely shoved God out of my life as much as possible. Coming to terms with this has been one of the most important things that one can do. And then after that came the realization that I'm not ready to accept Him back right now, that in fact I am furstrated with Him and I'm furstrated with myself and my habits. I think everyone has to face the fact that they are indeed mad and frustrated with God. Christians are afraid to say that we are actually mad with Him, but in my opinion it only hurts more when the anger is bottled up.
Things don't always work out the way you want them to and you just don't always get what you want. My dad used to tell me two things when I was little and kept bugging about something i had to have- either A) "You'll get nothing and like it." or my personal favorite B) "What you want and what you get are two different things." I think we all have issues accepting these realities but life isn't known for its easiness, simply put. Life happens and all you can really do is smile and take it in.You know what? You don't even have to smile but you are stuck with what life gives you, so suck it up and make the most of it.
Sophomore year is almost over. I have realized how freaking fast time flies and how I'm gonna miss everything. I'm terrified that I'm going to be staring at college applications and wonder where high school went. I challenge everyone to take something back from life this week for once, and freaking make this last week one to freaking remember. Do one thing everyday that scares you. I dare you. DO IT.
I guess this week could be called hell, but I guess its been a self realization time, a time to really look at myself. I'm struggling but I know everything will be ok. Its just a matter of facing truths in your life, letting everything go and truly taking a look at everything about you. So heres to this last week and future years of Fiji.
Suck it Trebeck
EDIT- This is a excerpt from Fight Club. So enjoy it.
So the old xanga name had to go. Band is cool and all but ummm yeah- out with the old and in with the commercialized and overpriced new. Well maybe not this xanga site but generally thats how things roll.
So I have to holla to the Big Man for servin me up some of my own words. Their are moments that things are so perfect that you completely forget to take them in and before you know it poof they're gone. Happened to me recently and now it lingers on my mind. Yeah. Ha gotta love the Irony of Life.
Im thinking naked on an Island in Fiji. Dancing in the rain and then dancing on the beach and then falling asleep to a cool island breeze and star filled night. Remote and secluded. Who freakin hears me? Holla.
You gotta love the informative lunch discussions, you learn very important life lessons. Freakin a. I say things that people think but never say, and that is truly how you break the ice. One of two things will happen either they will be shocked in the comedic sort of way that makes them laugh their head off or you'll piss them off and they'll walk away. Its part of the gamble of life. I like RISKS. Gets the adrenaline movin eh?
